For good.

It has been a long time since I have updated this... Im not doing very well in the blogoshpere... Im gonna do better... I think...

So lately... I have been on a self discovery journey... I figure since everything around me is changing... I should do some soul searching and figure out... WHO THE HELL I AM? So what am I doing to achieve this task? Great question: I am reading... Spending time along... )which for me is probably the hardest part... since I hate being alone.) journaling (which might be why I never update this thing) and of course working out (relieves all my tension)... I suppose its time that I do this... see since my 25th birthday I have been on a total search for myself... It is important to know who you are... and I feel like I lost myself in others in my life... I need to know ME... not what other people want to me be... Crazy thought I know... But I guess its what I need right now... I know change has to happen because its apart of life, and you have to roll with the punches... But you see I am not good at rolling with the punches... thats one bad thing about me... I want things my way... and lately nothing is going my way... But thats ok because its going to make me stronger... I need to be stronger... I have to be stronger... Maybe thats why I am on such a workout kick... maybe making me physically stronger will make me emotionally stronger... its what makes me workout so dang hard thats for sure...

Glinda sings in Wicked... "Ive heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason bringing something we must learn... and we are led to those that help us most to grow if we let them and we help them in return" I know this is true... because everyone that has come into my life for the past few years... has done just that.... taught me something... So thank you to all the people that have come into my life... you truely are some of the most amazing people I have ever met.... I know i don't thank you all nearly enough....

Ill try to keep you updated on my journey... Its going to be a long one...

CARPE DIEM...

PS Im still waiting...